My Words Create My World...
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Im almost 24 and my only social interactions happen at work. I avoid people and do not know how to keep friends. My hobbies include sleeping and playing with my dog. I do not go out with people because I feel that I cannot relate or connect with them. I feel alone and unsure about what to do. I do not know who I am as a person. What do I like doing, no clue. I’ve always been told, but now I have to choose for myself and I have no idea. Guess I should brain storm.
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Women.
I must be starting my period soon cause I hate life and all that is encompassed within it right now. That or I am becoming more and more depressed about everything. Which could very well be the case considering all I do each day is listen to people yell at me and complain about shit. Awesome right? Mmmm, no. No wonder people are on anti depressants. I would like some happy pills please, that would be great considering that the person that I go to to make me happy only makes me more upset frustrated and depressed right now. In that kind of mood where I can just stay in bed all day, not eat, and cry. I must be starting my period soon, damn you female body parts.
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Yes. Me with storm troopers. Amazing
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Family vusits
Mom visited this week for a few days. It was wonderful. We are at the point now where its more of an adult friendship than mother/daughter type dynamics. While there will still times where she will be my mother, I am very happy to have her as my friend.
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Soon
I will see you soon.
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Happy 3 years love, its been one heck of a ride! I can’t wait to see what adventures we will come across in the future! <3 always
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So I guess cause no one really knows I have a blog here, it allows me to just vent. How come everyone is getting engaged, married and having kids and I am struggling to get my boyfriend to even consider making plans for us to live in the same state, much less together. I know I say that it doesn’t bother me, dear, but it breaks my heart every time I bring it up and you just ignore it or say you can’t plan that right now. I know times are uncertain right now, but we have been at this for almost 2 years now. I saw you maybe 20 days last year, total. I am offering to move to you. To make our life happen. So that we can finally be happy with each other. But I am left here, alone, unable to talk to you cause there is a three hour time difference. There are times where I do question all of it. Ask myself why am I doing this. People ask me why. And I know you and I are worth it, worth the pain and distance. But how much longer do you want to do this. How much longer do you want to use vacation days just to see me for a weekend? How much longer are we going to Skype or video chat. I am fearful that the distance and time apart has allowed us to grow into different versions of ourselves. I am fearful that we will finally be together only to realize that the people that you and I fell in love with are no longer there. So how much longer, because I don’t know how much longer I can take before the christy you fell in love with is no longer here. I wanted to go to the gym tomorrow morning, but I guess it will wait took Tuesday.
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Please come back to cali….and me. I miss you.
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Truth.
All I want for Christmas is you…..along with more money, a really expensive vacation to go on, a house to live in that is all decorated for the holidays, an Audi, a paid off credit card, a temperpedic bed, a yard for Chewie, a new knee so I can go skiing, and a big diamond. How about that list Santa? So much for that song Grown-up Christmas list.
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Finally
A musician on SNL that I have never heard of a actually liked! Robyn is good stuff man, and she’s from Finland or something…..but her dance moves are totally like mine. Random and could be perceived as bad lol.
Hi there! 
